I'm so sick;

Sometimes. I'd wonder;

Do I, have to get permission, before I yell, scream, or LASH OUT, just because I want to?!

I'm so sick, and tired of being UNWELL.

I DONT WANT TO BE SICK ANYMORE.

I'm sick of all the friggin porridge which I have to swallow;

Of the bland and tasteless fish soup;

Of the fucking toasts.

Yes, I've sweared.

I know, it's bad; YES it's BAD;

TRUST ME, I KNOW.

I sing praises to Jesus, and I use language like that.

But can I just; lose control for ONCE;

I've never felt the need to express myself like THAT; on my blog before.

It may be the combination of stress and whatnots;

But, right now; I'm craving for ANYTHING delicious. Anything sweet.

And more than that;

I'm aching for your, understanding; patience, and love.

Right now, I really, feel like a million miles away.

And I don't know the right words to tell you.
how much, I really miss you.

**Esther, you were absolutely wonderful, helping me through this; and I don't blame you, for force feeding me with those stuff; I hope you understand, I JUST, need to, get this out of me before I start crying in the bath or something.

我们终于离开台北，去宜兰（和罗东）囖！

美丽的海滩；那是太平洋喔！我也好想冲浪喔！

那座墙是我自己爬上去的喔！

阿钦，Esther 和 Paul（： 我的好主意!

Esther 与我；我们爱我们的宜兰之旅！

×还会有更多照片哦！

Sheila's (Extra Special) 19th;

Esther and I came up with an ingenious plan; to surprise Sheila at the room; by ringing on the doorbell (incessantly!)at midnight; and that girl thought that we were annoying Chinese guests who had got the wrong door instead; (LOL; THEY DO THAT; ALL THE TIME!)



She was in her sleepwear; and we got her to change! (For picturesake!)



She was so touched; and I think the Birthday Girl was really close to crying!

She loved her black forest; and the pretty candles; and of course; I was there to capture everything;

It was so much fun; us eating the cake in silence; and then thinking of pranks for her; and after getting once pressie from us;

We got her to do a "treasure hunt" where she had to look for her 2nd gift!



The conversation was something like this;

" We have a 2nd gift for you; and it is hidden in this room! Go look for it yourself!"

"WHAT?!!? How am I going to EVER find it in this..... (speechless.)"

LOL; the state of our room;
It is really cosy; and comfy; but we'll definitely reject offers to come into our room to visit or have a look or whatever. You get the picture. HAHA!

She had to work the next day; (Unfortunately; her supervisor didn't schedule an off day for her on her birthday! And it was the afternoon shift which messes everything up!)



So we decided to have a birthday meal at Canton instead!
(Something really memorable; because there is NO way; my girlfriends and I will celebrate our birthdays by going to some hotel's Chinese restaurant;)

But the meal was awesome! Of course(:

On the menu was;




Salted Egg Soft Shell Crab



Fried Beef Horfun (I KNOW you get this everywhere in SG; but it's REALLY rare in TW!)



Shengkeng Tofu



Stir Fried Black Pepper Wild Boar's Meat



Sweet Glutinous Sesame Ball

It was REALLY absolutely DELISH!:D






Anyway; here's a shoutout to SHEILA;
(Sorry girl, didn't have a proper chance to give you a real good birthday blessing; BUT HERE GOES!)


Hope you'll have an awesome; 19th; and these few months with you; I've learnt alot about you; learnt from you too; AND, it's no mean feat; living with someone you have virtually no relations with; and I just HOPE for the remaining month in TW to be an incredible one; Let's really GO ALL OUT for our internship; no matter what the situation at work may be; and HAVE FUN;

I wish you tons of love, fun and smiles!


Love,
Shux


PS/ Shall post more pictures later; Experiencing some problemes with blogger now!

The 6 Letter Word

The Future;

Whenever I think about it; it's enough to make me go cold in my stomach; make me feel queasy; so much so that I would not have the appetite/ mood to finish whatever I was doing then.

I think we're at that age; where we have to plan about what we want to do in life;

And yesterday; while chatting with Harrison; I've come to an unpleasant realisation that, I may be one of those people, who does a degree, in something which they have no interest in.

I do not want to be those people who, goes to college, choose a major they have no interest in, and do something; only because it's "responsible" and it "pays for the bills";

If I were to give up; and end up with a diploma; I KNOW, I'd definitely regret later in life;

And really; I'm way too chicken, to try something new; to start something all over again; (And my 3 academic years in Ngee Ann will be wasted!)

So, Hospitality Mangement; HERE I COME;
(Hah, said with as much enthusiasm as something going in for all their 4 wisdom tooth to be extracted)

I do not want to give up in Hospitality; After all; it IS really sad; to be doing something for the sake of doing it;

I'm so torn now; and the best part is; I KNOW how time flies; and if I want to do the Fall 2010 semester; I will have to get moving soon!

I know I'm not alone in how I feel but; gosh; the uncertainty is so unnerving!